At the end of the last episode of Freaks and Geeks Lindsey gets on a hippie bus to follow the Grateful Dead instead of going to that weird achievement math camp at The University of Michigan.
She lies and goes against her parent’s wishes, finally taking ownership for her life.
Thats how I feel about going to college.
Like the future is this big, unknown, beautiful scary thing. Like I'm finally getting to choose my life, just like Lindsey Weir.
I have been waiting my whole life to go to college. To go to a place full of open minded, free thinkers.
Up to this point, I have partially defined myself by my surroundings.
That’s where this blog came from.
It was birthed out of my utter frustration concerning my life. The town I was “stuck” in, the mindset of the people I was “stuck” with…
The genesis was my desire to fly from the jail bars disguised as picket fences
^^^(…I definitely just exceeded my teen angst limit for the day).
Throughout this whole experience I have developed my sense of self, based on what I am not.
But that is a flawed understanding of self-awareness.
Tomorrow I leave for college.
I have finally escaped the suburbs...
But the truth is, you can never escape who you are.
You can never run away from yourself.
Maybe that’s what I was trying to do all along.
Instead of accepting my true self, quirks included I blamed my own denial on my environment.
The truth is I’m not fundamentally changing and the world isn’t either.
But college is a time for introspective thought and regretful Friday night behavior.
I’ll have more than enough time to discover the authentic me and do some pretty rad shit at the same time.
I hope you guys join me because this feminist ain't in suburbia no more...